G Dragon.
Tuesday, 11 September 2012 | 11:14 pm | 0 comments
Hey guys. Btw this is about Gdragon. Wait, this is just a copy paste. This is not mine, I'm just sharing it. Enjoy! :-D
Well, I’m a GD stan. That’s old news. And as a hardcore fangirl,
everything related to Big Bang makes me go a little over the edge, and
most of the time I sound incoherent and immature.
So, it’s right to say that today was more than special to me. Kwon
Jiyong, ‘the light of my life, my inspiration’, made his comeback, his
solo comeback, after 3 years.
But before
I start talking about the MV, I just like to share my thoughts about
GD, his solo, 2009, and many more (told ya’ this is going to be big). I
won’t analyze the vid, and all the symbolism behind it. This is just a
post about my feelings.
I also
didn’t have any VIP friends, or a blog to talk about it. I just watched
few random things, what I could download with the crap conection I had
back then. So everything was really. really. really. hard for me back
then. It was hard to stay updated, it was hard to watch my baby’s
performances, it was hard to be a fangirl.
When GD
released Heartbreaker, Gosh, it was the bomb. Really, I remember people
talking non-stop about his lyrics, about his album, about his looks. He
dominated the charts, every performance was brilliant and groundbreaking, his clothes were the ‘trend’.
I also remember all the hate, his depression, the plagiarism incident,
the controversy behind his concert and about the suicide petition.
So, when I
said I suffered like a crazy bitch back then, worrying about him, some
people doesn’t take it seriously. Yeah, GD had another unfortunate
incident last year, and it was also hard to bear, but, at least, I knew
what was ‘going on’. Not knowing anything was the worst feeling ever.
I’m not sayin’ 2009 was freakin’ hard and poor me, poor Jiyong. No. I’m just sayin’ that it was a pretty tough
year for GD, and when my baby’s not okay, I’m not okay. But my little
angel survived though all the criticism, making me proud than ever. I
imagine how hard it was for him. Really. I always think about that. And
the thought of a depressed little boy tear my heart apart.
I don’t know how he can do it. I mean, when I say Jiyong is my
inspiration, I’m not sayin’ because ‘omg he’s my bias and he’s perfect
and awww…’, I’m say because I wish I could have 1% of his emotional
strength. People telling you should kill yourself, sayin’ your hard work
is a lie, sayin’ your concert concept is too violent. HATE HATE &
MORE HATE. All of this in front of the cameras. Worldwide.
He’s strong. He’s brave. He’s Kwon Jiyong. He’s G-Dragon.
GET UP.
And he did.
2011. He falls again.
This time was different. Because he wasn’t innocent. He was guilty.
Yeah, I’m not sayin’ he did what he did because he wanted to. It was
mindless, but yet, it was his fault. And I bet this time was even harder
for him. He wasn’t a victim of his own sucess, he just made a bad
decision and he had to pay for it.
He’s strong. He’s brave. He’s Kwon Jiyong. He’s G-Dragon.
GET UP.
And he did.
When I saw Kwon Jiyong on stage, during the YG Family concert last
year, I thought my heart was going to explode with so many feelings.
Really. My little phoenix was back on track, and all I could feel was
excitement and pride.
This was a really, really special year, not just for GD but for Big
Bang as well, after that drama last year, my kings had the chance to
rise again. And it was beautiful. Just talking about their comeback
makes me wanna cry.
Heartbreaker was a ‘commercial’ album. The songs were really good, but they were songs for a majority of people. It’s hard not to like Heartbreaker. Beautiful concept, nice beats, addicting lyrics. And also his looks, always impeccable. The album was made for all kinds of people, all kind of taste. So, the album’s huge sucess isn’t a surprise.
But I
kinda feel that something was missing. Don’t get me wrong, I bow down to
‘Heartbreaker’, and it is one of my all-time favorite albums, but I
wanted more Jiyong in it. The baddass rapper Kwon Jiyong. The ‘idgaf’
about what people thinks Kwon Jiyong. The I’m not here to please you
Kwon Jiyong.
So when I
saw the teaser, I was taken aback. Really. The melody, the lyrics, the
‘underground’ concept, and of course, his looks. It was all I could ever
ask. We can clearly see he is ‘REALLY DOIN’ THIS FOR FUN’. I could feel
his freedom and maturity through a 30sec vid.
And today, the MV was released.
I cried
like a little baby, I have to admit. That’s also old news. This vid was
more than I could ever ask, really. The lyrics are fuckin’ dope (you
little arrogant brat princess I love you), the choreo is so awesome I thought
I’d faint. And his looks, of course. He’s not trying to look
modeling-perfection, not trying to draw more fangirls, he’s not appealing. He’s G-Dragon. And he’s doing what he wants, doing what he likes.
So thank you Kwon Jiyong, for not quitting, for getting up, for
believing in yourself, and specially, thanks for being yourself. You’re
my ultimate.